About a week ago, I felt like I was over the edge--too likely to make a big mistake, or do something I would regret. I decided to take a week off from all blogs and other things. The first two days were hard, the rest weren't. I just had too many other things to do, and didn't miss it. I felt like I was calming down somewhat, and church wasn't quite as rough as it has been.
But of course, I knew all along, that the "affliction" wasn't gone, nor over. It isn't going away, and won't be over any time soon. Men still turned me on at the gym, and I still enjoy looking at them. I did realize during all this that what I crave most perhaps is human affection and the touch of love.
I don't know where life is going, and I don't know what to do. One day at a time, taking a few steps forward. My very best wishes to each of you who are in the same shoes.
those wishes are reflected back to you.
ReplyDeleteAh...I know those shoes too well. The treads were holding up & getting comfy. Then, shazam, walking past a shoe store the other day & they have such pretty new ones.....UGH! I can't help it! I LIKE shoes. UGH again! But moving on because the price is NOT worth the purchase. Hope you are able to get out of the mall with out a new pair.
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