Today I got up, made breakfast for the tribe, walked the dog, got showered, dragged the kids to church, and listened. I listened quite carefully to the testiomonies, and went to Sunday School. I managed to even read a few conference talks online. By the time that was done, I felt like life was just one long endless rotten experience.
I sort of found myself feeling "down" thinking about this LDS view that life is just the endless search for perfection. Fun? Whats that. Affection--not for you boy. Joy? not sure it is more than a concept... My kids just mean endless cries of "DAD" complaints about this that and something else, expenses that don't end, and the occasional smiles you see when they aren't bawling.
So I gave up, and took a nap. Real dramatic, huh. Well, thats about all the energy I had in me to deal with what the gospel was dishing out. I read the talk on love, and the talk on "law" given by members of the twelve in the Saturday meetings. I just wasn't uplifted. Somehow, I wonder why they let lawyers be general authorities.... Amazing how hopeless it made me feel.
what would happen, say, someone who struggled as we do was called to the quorum of the twelve? WOULD YOU DIE! Maybe someone who hadn't lead a perfect life could be more insightful. At least they would wear great ties!
ReplyDeleteInteresting thought. I'm sure there are many like us who have served as bishops, maybe even stake presidents.
ReplyDeleteAnd yet, there were some words that were so encouraging... I'm particularly thinking of every talk given by a member of the First Presidency -- President Uchtdorf's talk, President Eyring's talk, President Monson's talk. All focusing on love, and reminding us of how it is in love and in relationships that we find meaning in life... My own recent post about the importance of touch and human connection were inspired partly by some of these conference talks...
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