Warning--I'll be rambling...

Pure love may not create pure living. Pure living may not be exactly what we think it is. Is a man who loves a man impure? Is such love even possible? Or is the better question more like this: how could it be impossible for a man to love a man? Love of a man and love of a woman all seem the same at their core. Love: giving without expectation of reward, seeking the best interest of someone else instead of self, honesty & selflessness are inherent in any kind of loving relationship.

Circumscribing people with a framework may be useful, may be necessary, but where does it end? Why should any framework exclude those like me who look and see the opposite.

I have learned that compassion, passion and affection all feel the same when they go between two men as they do when they go between a man and a woman. They can excite, guide, pull and fuse. One type of relationship is not exempt from the power.

If the Savior had a temporal path he hoped each of us to live, then how is it possible for him to seek an exclusion of a "class." A perfect savior is not an exclusionary savior. It could not be. But what is it that makes religions seek to exclude classes? They create a method of appropriate living--a framework of rules, which they call commandments, then seek a society to share their views, or history shows us they seek to create that society.

Can the reality of our existence really be so black and white? Was our savior's love so unlimited, but bounded by this sort of framework?

I guess I am an apostate. I do not feel or share the views imposed by the framework. But I can't deny God his love, or that he is a good seeking diety seeking a better world for his children. This good is felt in so many places, so many faiths, so many spots. As beautiful in a nasty worn-out apartment as on a majestic mountain peak.

I perhaps would have never had my views altered had I not been afflicted (in the LDS view) with Same Sex attraction. I could have marched forward without question or concern. But in life's scheme, I was afflicted (or blessed, depending upon your views) with this, and therefore comes my questions. I want peace, love and joy, but what now?