I'm pretty negligent when it comes to writing lately. It seems I just don't have the "drive" to express myself on "blog" all that often. Well, I'm still alive, for those few of you who actually read this. Busy raising my two sons, enjoying them for the summer. I've been in Washington State, Alaska, New York, Wyoming, Nebraska, Iowa, Idaho and Utah of course during the past 6 weeks. Just too much traveling. I enjoyed most of it, but felt kind of overwhelmed with it.
Life has been stressful. I am reaping the rewards of having neglected my business for 3 years, meaning, of course not enough income. It frustrates me, and frankly, makes me feel guilty. The drive/desire to be the good provider runs deep within me, and I sure haven't felt that way lately.
I'm not really dating anyone, since I don't have time. Last night was the first time I'd been out to see my friends in a long time. It was good for me, frankly. I've had some interesting experiences this past month. Perhaps among them, the one I enjoyed the most from a spiritual perspective was going to a meeting in Provo sponsored by a group of people that consists of people who have gay children/relatives, or of those of us in the "family." It was really amazing to hear a now retired BYU professor speak about his experiences in dealing with his gay son, and with the university's built in aversion to all things homosexual. You see, the professor taught education classes on dealing with diversity---that was his job. But regularly, he'd get all sorts of anonymous complaints from True blue mormon students complaining that he dared to mention homosexuality in class. It was spiritual, heart felt and left me feeling better. Many of his conclusions are similar to my own.
He believes, as do I, that God reaches far beyond religion, and religion is just his tool. Our spirituality and the growth of who we are as people cannot be limited.
I hope all of you are doing well, and life is treating you well. Mine is good in most respects, and will get better in those that have "lacked."
Welcome back! Glad you were able to spend time with your boys. Many of us MoHos don't have kids, so count your many blessings. :)
ReplyDeleteWelcome back, my friend! We've both been so busy and life has been crazy for everyone this summer it seems. Hope the things that are going well stay well and those areas that can improve are quickly fantastic. Thinking of you.
ReplyDeleteMatt
Welcome back. The professors story was very interesting, especially the incidents of anonymous comments from people and his courage to continue despite the flack.
ReplyDeleteI've found it hard to write when life is just busy and happening. It isn't that there's nothing happening worth noting but there's also less and less things that are a conflict or angst--that should be a good thing, no?
ReplyDeleteHugs,Miguel