So, Monday has arrived, and I'm back in the saddle, however distracted, and thinking about several things. First, I'm thinking about Patriarchal Blessings, where these fellows give you long, solemn promises and warnings about your life, and try to guide your future. Having read mine too many times, I know that there had to be some inspiration in there. It also provides this warning about reading the B of M and not going astray. But of course, nothing specific about dealing with SGA, etc. Ever thought about these things boys?
Sunday the topic of the day was keeping the Sacrament. My wife and I just sat and cringed during the first talk as this newlywed identified all the do nots and do's of an idealistic Sabbath Day. We cringed because it was so orthodox. This idea of sitting from dawn to dusk meditating in a perfectly inspired world. Try that with 4 kids.... I'm just so not an orthodox kind of mormon. I found myself wondering why we have the Sabbath. I love the rest, I like the family time. I can certainly see societal need for a "day off" and a day away from work, etc.
Last thought of the day--I was traveling Saturday and found myself so drawn to attractive guys. Wishing I could sit by one en-route. I can't shut it off. I'm not even being a bad boy and looking at porn lately, but there is truly no shut off. Been going to the church's 12 step program for addiction recovery from pornography. Helpful program, sincere love for those in it, and sincerely positive. No matter my feelings for the church--the meetings represent to me that kind of "pure religion" of seeking the good, getting over evil, overcoming roadblocks, and trying to make a better life for yourself. There is something inspiring about listening to others trying to improve their lives.
Have a good Monday fellows. God loves you, no matter what we all end up finding out his true character and desires for us are.
I find it easier to be charitable with The Orthodox when I remember that most of them probably haven't yet reached their own Gethsemane experience in life yet, the one that fractures everything and forces them to really decide what THEY want and believe as opposed to just following along because it's easier and safer and more comfortable.
ReplyDeleteAlan,
ReplyDeleteWell said. Gethsemane moments, or the test of a lifetime.
Hi Joe. I just found your blog. (I'm 26, happily married to a woman for 2 years, while also attracted to men.)
ReplyDeleteAbout the Addiction Recovery meetings, I go as well, and totally agree with your "pure religion" comment. I often mention how these meetings and the program is a very practical approach to the gospel and is essentially, the Atonement in Action- and that is often times what attracts me to the group. The wonderful spirit that is present.
Jake.